Reincarnated as a Poor Little Green Tea, Am I Destined to Be Bullied? - Volume 1 Chapter 7

Chapter 7: Faint Light

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Grandmother Zhang, who had raised her since childhood passed away.

She departed peacefully.

Traditionally, this way of leaving is called “dying of natural causes in one’s sleep.”

When Lin Yueye received the news, she was working, and it was pouring rain outside.

She rushed out into the evening rain without a care, umbrellaless, from the west side of the city to the east. Taxis couldn’t navigate the muddy roads in front of the orphanage after the rain, so she trudged through the mire on foot, letting the rain drizzle and howl around her, only wanting to find the banana leaves that had once sheltered her from wind and rain a little sooner.

But what did it matter?

The day Grandma Zhang picked her up, they say it was also raining heavily.

Grandma didn’t have an umbrella either, and she too had hurried all the way.

But in truth, a little earlier or later, there wasn’t much difference.

Later, at Grandma Zhang’s funeral, Lin Yueye, who cried until she nearly fainted, received a letter from the orphanage director.

It was the last letter Grandma Zhang had written to Lin Yueye before she died.

The kind-hearted, like those who know their end is near on their deathbed, are given enough time by heaven to tell their final words to those they miss most.

That letter was buried by Lin Yueye’s own hands under the banana trees.

The contents of the letter, Grandma’s last wish, were quite simple when you think about it.

— She hoped that little Yueye could dress up more prettily, as she was already such a beautiful child, and should have what other children had.

Along with the letter, a few thousand yuan was left for Lin Yueye.

As a retired worker, Grandma Zhang’s pension savings over more than 20 years were quite substantial, but she had already donated most of it to the orphanage. She chose to dispose of these few thousand yuan saved through frugal living herself.

To say it was her own disposal.

But in fact, it was also meant to give comfort to the child she cared for and thought highly of.

Perhaps rationally speaking, Lin Yueye should have used this money to supplement her living expenses and improve her diet, not to let herself fall ill from overwork, not to worry Grandma in heaven.

Perhaps emotionally speaking, she also wanted, like Grandma, to donate this money to the orphanage, to buy an air conditioner for the children who came after.

But Lin Yueye had always been an obedient child.

Wasn’t Grandma’s wish already written in the letter?

She hoped little Yueye could dress up prettily, not letting the beauty bestowed by heaven be obscured by worldly mist.

That was the first time Lin Yueye went to the mall to buy herself a little white dress for several hundred yuan.

It was the first time Lin Yueye wore shiny hair accessories, tying up her loose hair.

She put on the brand new canvas shoes she had longed for for so long.

At that time, Lin Yueye stood in front of the mirror looking at herself, flashed a brilliant smile, and then quickly burst into tears.

Whispering and sobbing, she called out to her in her memories, not knowing if Grandma would be satisfied with the fulfillment of this wish.

Back to the present.

Lin Yueye lowered her head in silence.

She looked again at the white dress she was wearing, and only now understood why everything in the rented room was old, except for this clothing, which was so new.

She also just noticed the new clothing tag that hadn’t been cut off the collar yet.

Was she reluctant to cut it off?

Or… deep in her heart, was she hoping that those gentle hands, like before, could help her cut it off while she was sleeping?

The tree desires stillness, but the wind does not cease.

At the time, it was thought to be ordinary.

“Human… are you alright? Are you crying…? I… I didn’t mean to eat your snow cake…”

“Ah… it’s okay, I just feel… empathetic.”

“Is that so…”

Yes.

As someone who also came from an orphanage, the former 【Ling Qingyue】 had experienced a lot too.

Feeling her feelings, tears spring from the heart. But now, there was no desire to say more.

“After fulfilling Grandma’s wish… why did she choose to die?”

“Perhaps it was because she had no more attachments to this world,” Yuebing looked up at the low ceiling and said frankly.

The little deity didn’t understand much about human sentiments and customs.

But even so, she knew that Grandma Zhang wanted 【Lin Yueye】 to live on, and Lin Yueye must have known this.

So, the reason that led to her suicide, in 【Lin Yueye】 last memories, could only be the last one.

Starry points of light flowed through Yuebing’s galaxy-like eyes, picking up the last narration from 【Lin Yueye】 sea of memories.

“When she returned to school after observing the mourning period for her grandmother, there were even more rumors.”

Because she was wearing clothes completely different from her usual attire.

Shoes that weren’t too expensive but not cheap either, and she had “unusually” fixed her hair with a hairpin, dressing herself up.

When a poor girl who already possessed devastating beauty suddenly had such a change, jealousy being the original sin, those with malicious intentions took the opportunity to elaborate.

【Have you heard… that Lin Yueye from Class 3, seems to be doing some indecent part-time job…】

【Ew, really… she won’t have some disease, right? Why don’t the teachers do something?】

【Who dares to interfere? Besides, for this kind of thing, who’s willing to get involved. She doesn’t have parents, so even if someone did something, who would they talk to?】

There are no walls without cracks.

And no window that won’t break when continuously struck.

Having lost her closest non-blood relative, at the girl’s most vulnerable moment, hearing those rumors, seeing every gaze full of contempt, one can imagine how desperate she must have felt.

So, that night she pushed aside the table full of medicine bottles, used the remaining money Grandma Zhang had left her to buy some snacks, placed them at the orphanage door…

Then returned to the roof of this rented room where she lived.

Gazing blankly at the sky, finally, she spread her arms.

And leapt down.

“In this matter, there wasn’t much I could do. Deities cannot interfere with human decisions,” Yuebing no longer had any expired snow cakes, she twirled Lin Yueye’s silver hair that fell beside her with her fingers, speaking quietly, “I observed that intense emotional fluctuation, and before she fell, I transferred her back to her own room, preserving her body so it wouldn’t be shattered. But her life still ended according to her original choice. You know what happened after that.”

“Thank you, Yuebing.”

“Thank me?”

“Mm.”

Thank you for preserving her final dignity and respect.

Lin Yueye tilted her head back, seemingly seeing the same sky she had seen then.

It’s really hard to imagine…

When this girl finally stood on the roof, looking up at the birds flying by, if she suddenly remembered the birds she had seen leaning against the orphanage wall years ago, what kind of feelings would she have had?

It flew over mountains and seas.

And you?

Lin Yueye’s heart suddenly tightened, perhaps because of this body…? It seemed to resonate with her pain from that time.

Without realizing it.

A human and a deity, nestled close to each other, as if for warmth, but this wasn’t fire, it was the temperature of souls.

“Yuebing, do you think I’ll have a chance to meet this 【Lin Yueye】 in the future?”

“No way, no way~ I’ve already transferred her to another world to live a good life, who’s suffering like you? She has a new body, has her original memories, but she’s not in this world at all, you absolutely won’t be able to meet her! Pro…probably? Mm! There won’t be any mistakes, I always do things properly! This is certified by Mother Goddess herself! Uh, but why do you still want to meet her?”

“It’s nothing, if there’s no chance, then forget it. It’s a good thing to be able to leave such a whirlpool, just feels a bit of a pity.”

“A pity?”

Mm, actually, I had something I wanted to tell her.

It’s not a profound statement.

I just wanted to remind her.

— Don’t forget to open the curtains.

Lin Yueye stood up, following the faint golden light spilling onto the windowsill, walking towards the not-quite-closed curtains.

She reached out, grasping a corner of the curtain.

Standing on tiptoe, she pulled open the curtains that seemed to be cleaned daily, spotless!

Whoosh!

In an instant.

The pale golden afternoon light poured in, filling every corner of the room.

Illuminating those medicine boxes.

Illuminating the neatly arranged hairpins on the table, illuminating every corner and trace where that girl had once lived.

Lin Yueye smiled contentedly, beckoning Yuebing to come over.

“Yuebing, look.”

“Look at what? Let me see…”

Yuebing crawled from that side of the bed to this side, the room was just that big.

One bed was enough to come from the dark corner to the windowsill.

Yuebing didn’t know what she was talking about, and hadn’t had much expectation.

But when she saw the scene outside the window…

Her eyes suddenly brightened, reflecting rippling light.

Outside the quiet alley.

At the far end of the old windowsill.

With no obstructions to the view, in the distance were towering buildings.

The entire city and the world seemed to unfold before their eyes.

Even from afar, they could see, yet not be disturbed by the city’s hustle and bustle.

Close enough not to be blurred, the vast world was just a stone’s throw away.

Yuebing couldn’t help but move closer to the window, pressing her little face against the spotlessly clean glass.

“Wow… I think I’ve only looked down like this from the sky before! Seeing it this way is a first! It felt so stuffy earlier, but this place is actually quite open!”

“Mm, I thought so too.”

Lin Yueye didn’t have much money in her past life either, and was cautious about spending, so she had researched renting quite thoroughly.

She had looked at many types of rooms and made many comparisons.

In her view, 【Lin Yueye】 room seemed to have sacrificed some space, using the same rent to exchange for something else.

What was exchanged…?

Mm.

What was exchanged was facing the sun and living.

So, she was a person who liked sunlight.

How could a girl who liked to sit under trees in the afternoon sunlight not like sunshine?

Even if it meant paying more rent, working harder to earn money, she still wanted to keep a ray of warm sun.

Feeling the faint light coming towards her, Lin Yueye squinted, words flowing from her heart.

“Yuebing, I think I suddenly don’t blame you for having me reincarnate here anymore.”

“Huh?! You were blaming me all along before?!”

“……”

You just realized it now!

Never mind.

After all, at this moment, Lin Yueye’s heart was beating strongly and powerfully with her new body basking in the sunlight.

“Don’t you think those harmful people at school are the ones who should go to hell?”

“Oh?” Yuebing tilted her head, reading on Lin Yueye’s beautiful face a determination that wasn’t there before, and smiled along with her, “Human, it seems you’ve made up your mind to accept this body and fight a battle to turn things around?”

“Didn’t you say from the beginning?”

Lin Yueye pushed open the window, stretched out her hand, her tender palm stirring the clear wind of the vast city.

“I don’t have the right to choose, do I?”

“You can choose… you can choose… Mother Goddess is going to scold me again.”

“Heh, but I suddenly don’t want to choose anymore.”

After all, this afternoon’s brilliant sun is intoxicating…

A white feather suddenly fell into Lin Yueye’s palm.

She looked up in surprise to see a bird flying by.

Its long cry echoed as it flapped its wings and flew away.

The young girl smiled slightly, slowly releasing the white feather in her hand. The light feather rose with the wind.

It was just a brief gaze, and her eyes didn’t need to linger to try to guess where it would float.

After all, wherever the wind takes it, be it north or south, as long as you take a step, it’s both a distant place and the way home.