Reincarnated as a Poor Little Green Tea, Am I Destined to Be Bullied? - Volume 1 Chapter 69

Chapter 69: Can’t Let Go

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Luo Yahan waited for a moment at the spiral staircase corner, probably deliberately waiting until the arguing voices subsided a bit, then intentionally made her footsteps louder on the stairs, this was to warn them both that someone was coming.

The Xia family head Xia Qinyang and his wife Madam Su Shuolan, upon hearing the footsteps, reflexively suppressed the anger on their faces before even seeing who was coming, replacing it with appropriate and dignified expressions, falling silent.

No matter who came, as the leaders of the Xia family, they should set an example and not bring negative emotions to the people in the house.

When Luo Yahan’s figure appeared in their vision, that heavy atmosphere gradually lightened somewhat.

“Yahan, why haven’t you gone home so late?” Su Shuolan clasped her hands in front, seeing Luo Yahan made her mood much better, “Did Mujin trouble you with something again, this child…”

“It’s alright, Auntie. Today Mujin didn’t say anything, just took a day off from school. I was a bit worried, so I just went to check on her.”

“Ah.”

This sigh drew both Luo Yahan and Su Shuolan’s attention to Xia Qinyang’s direction.

The Xia family head had weathered many storms, and he didn’t like sighing like this.

But once matters involved his own family affairs, it became his weakness, always giving this commanding figure who stood tall in Qihai city’s business world an inexplicable sense of powerlessness.

His gaze toward Luo Yahan carried much apologetic meaning.

“Child, we’ve really been troubling you lately.”

“Trouble?” Luo Yahan shook her head in objection, “Uncle, although I want to say ‘no need to be polite’, I think Xia Mujin and I are friends, and now that I’m working at your house, strictly speaking, this falls within my work duties, so you’re being too serious this hardly counts as trouble.”

“It’s precisely because of this that your aunt and I feel guilty… ah.”

Yahan was a child who grew up under the Xia family’s watch.

For Xia Qinyang and Su Shuolan, while they wouldn’t go so far as to say they saw her as their own child, they certainly treated her like a very close relative’s child.

Though she didn’t have the Xia surname, she was still half a member of the Xia family.

Su Shuolan looked at the maid uniform Luo Yahan was wearing, feeling equally distressed.

Like a fishbone stuck in her throat, some words hung at the edge but couldn’t be spoken.

Luo Yahan frowned, she didn’t like this feeling.

“Auntie, please just say what’s on your mind, I don’t mind.”

“Yahan…”

Su Shuolan stepped forward two steps, using both hands to grasp Luo Yahan’s naturally cold left hand.

Her expression overflowed with concern, she really wanted to hear Luo Yahan’s true feelings.

“Yahan, tell auntie, you insisting on working here now… you’re not forcing yourself, are you?”

“Auntie?”

Luo Yahan was confused at first, but quickly understood what the other party wanted to say and ask.

Luo Yahan’s expression remained as calm as ever. She first shook her head at Su Shuolan, not forgetting to politely glance at Xia Qinyang, before slowly speaking.

“Uncle, Auntie, I remember I should have said before, I came to be a maid at the Xia family just to gain some work experience. The head maid’s work is quite unusual, it’s not just taking care of Xia Mujin, but also learning some management knowledge, and I can also gain exposure following you both to see the world, so why not?”

“Is that really the case…”

“……”

Her hand was trembling.

Luo Yahan couldn’t tell for a moment whether it was her hand that was trembling, or Su Shuolan’s.

“That matter is all in the past… child, that was the Luo family’s sin, not yours.”

“Yes…” Xia Qinyang leaned against the wall behind him, on this point, his view completely aligned with his wife, “The Luo family, the head at that time was your grand-uncle, that beast has already been sentenced, wasn’t everything investigated clearly? These things were all his own desperate actions, they had nothing to do with your father, and of course even less to do with you, so why do you need to torment yourself, unable to move past it?”

“……”

The voices by her ears became somewhat ethereal and distant.

That year’s chaos in Qihai’s business world still had lingering effects even today.

This reminded Luo Yahan.

The full name of the company that desperately kidnapped Xia Muqing back then… was called Luoheng Group.

Luoheng Group.

—— It was precisely Luo Yahan’s family enterprise.

Her ice-colored pupils became dim, a sense of guilt once again stained her purely ice-like eyes.

The Luo family head at that time was the younger brother of Luo Yahan’s grandfather. At that time, her father was just a department director in the company, with some real power but completely unaware of the company’s core affairs.

The Luo family lost in their life-and-death struggle with the Xia family.

Everyone in the company was prepared to be liquidated and pack up, no one would have thought that the usually steady-looking chairman would make such a desperate decision of rather being jade shattered than pottery intact.

What happened after that wasn’t something Luo Yahan was willing to recall.

From being the young lady of the Luo family to becoming an object of ridicule among peers, at that time only that foolish sibling pair still treated her with smiling faces.

Luo Yahan remembered that smile.

She couldn’t forget it.

But she often had nightmares, it was her former family members who destroyed that smile completely, annihilating everything.

Damn it…

Damn it…

They all deserve to die…

“Yahan… Yahan?”

“Hmm…? Ah… Auntie, I’m fine.”

“You say you’re fine… but I see your complexion is very poor. Come, sit here for a while, let auntie get you some water.”

“No need…!”

“Yahan…?”

Luo Yahan instinctively grabbed Su Shuolan’s sleeve, stopping her from getting water for herself.

This action made Su Shuolan feel a pang of heartache.

Child…

Do you feel… that you’re not worthy…?

This strong woman also choked up, sitting on the stairs beside Luo Yahan, holding her to her shoulder, gently patting her back.

“Yahan… you’ve already done so much for our family… Since Muqing left, haven’t you been the one accompanying Mujin? When have you ever complained… Listen to auntie… let’s not stay trapped anymore. Before we couldn’t find Muqing, now Muqing has… I’m his mother, I can persevere through this, why can’t you…?”

You can persevere…?

But all Luo Yahan could see were fragile tears, with no resilience matching those words.

“That evil-doer has already received due punishment… now your father is starting anew, isn’t the new Luo family rising already…? You’re the young lady of the Luo family, you’re so intelligent, you have such a bright future… Your father asked you to participate in the capital university’s research project last month… why did you turn it down? That was such a good opportunity for you… child, others want to go but can’t even get the chance.”

“Auntie… I… I’m not interested in those things, I don’t have any… other meaning.”

“You just can’t let go of Mujin… You just can’t let go of Muqing…! Do you need auntie to spell it out for you…!”

“……”

Auntie cried.

Then, have you let go?

Taking up and letting go, that’s talking about people who bring suffering upon themselves.

But that sorrow, it wasn’t something we willingly took up.

So how can we easily let go…

Unable to let go, now that once innocent and carefree child cannot sleep at night, separated from her brother by life and death.

Luo Yahan looked at the embroidery on her maid uniform sleeve, looking around blankly.

Only by staying here would she feel at peace.

Only by keeping an expressionless face could she avoid being shattered by the crying.

Having the surname “Luo” naturally wasn’t a sin.

But just thinking of his incomplete smile, hearing her crying that still faintly continues to this day.

—— Would inevitably remind her, ah, my surname is Luo…