Reincarnated as a Poor Little Green Tea, Am I Destined to Be Bullied? - Volume 1 Chapter 45

Chapter 45: Big Trouble!

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Those paper love letters fluttering to the ground.

Gradually piecing together the final puzzle piece of Lin Yueye’s thought pattern.

So that’s how it is…

She had always felt something was strange.

【Lin Yueye】, she looked around bewildered at school, as if surrounded by enemies, isn’t that very odd?

In Yuebing’s account, her personality wasn’t flamboyant, her behavior was reserved. Even if quite a few girls were jealous of her beauty, even if they spread some rumors, it shouldn’t have resulted in her being isolated by the entire school.

Such an excellent girl should have quite a few admirers, right?

These paper scraps instantly covering the tiles answered Yueye’s question.

“Did you… intercept all of these…?”

“Yes…”

Hearing Lin Yueye’s matter-of-fact question, Xia Mujin gazed at Yueye’s wavering eyes with love in her expression.

Her delicate jade-like hand casually picked up a heart-shaped envelope, pressed it against the spikes of the collar, and right in front of Lin Yueye, tore it into pieces with a ripping sound.

Through the gap of the torn paper, spreading in opposite directions, was Xia Mujin’s loving yet hateful gaze.

One day outside the classroom.

The slanting sun as everyone had left after school.

Xia Mujin leaned against the outside of the classroom, hiding in a corner, quietly listening to Lin Yueye writing alone in the classroom, the scratching sound of pen tip on paper.

Until dusk approached, the girl clutched the carefully written envelopes to her chest, referring to the dozens of love letters she had received, her hurried yet fairy-like figure passing through one teaching building after another, finding the seats of those who had written the love letters, carefully placing the written replies into each desk hole.

Those replies, without exception, were all rejections.

But 【Lin Yueye】 was kind, she felt that every sentiment deserved a response, even if it couldn’t get an echo, it should at least leave a pleasant breeze in the air like a white bird’s feathers as it skims across the sky.

“But they don’t deserve it…”

Xia Mujin bent her knees, kneeling face to face with Lin Yueye.

Her half-naked form trembled more as she made contact with the ground, unsure if it was the cold floor tiles or if her mood sank to the bottom as she recalled these things.

“How could they possibly deserve it… You sacrificed your part-time work hours, writing one letter after another by hand, replying to their frivolous thoughts one by one… Why were you so naive… Did you really think they wrote to you out of ‘love’? Ah… my dear Yueye, do you know how much it hurt me to watch you…”

Her warm yet slightly cool palm caressed Lin Yueye’s momentarily speechless cheek.

She was speechless, so the palm slid from her cheek to her neck, the touch instantly causing her delicate body to quiver weakly before her mind could react.

And until Yueye softly spoke…

That deeply affectionate hand continuing to wander downwards suddenly stopped just below the shoulder strap of the white dress.

“I know…”

“Eh? Yueye… did you say something?”

“I said… I know, you know?”

“Ah…! Right! I knew you could understand me!” Xia Mujin’s face burst into a joyful blush, “It’s good that you understand! They really don’t deserve the effort you put into writing those replies!”

Wrong… when I said ‘I know’, it wasn’t that I fully understood your actions.

Lin Yueye just perhaps understood the thoughts of 【Lin Yueye】 who had been sitting at the desk in the slanting sunset, writing feverishly.

Xia Mujin was still speaking softly.

“And… there are so many sweet talkers nowadays… I’m really worried… Yueye… I’m so happy you can understand…”

【Lin Yueye】 was a smart person, she surely knew those people might not have good intentions.

Coming from a poor background, she had long understood that there’s no such thing as kindness without reason in this world.

She wrote those rejection letters, not just to “respond to sentiments”.

More importantly, it was also to desperately seek a foothold for herself.

She knew that birds can soar in the blue sky because the sky doesn’t envy their wings, and birds have never tried to fly higher than the sky. When storms come, birds fold their wings and hide somewhere, rather than choosing to fight against the sky.

The orphanage grandma’s words “don’t contend with everyone” had always been remembered in her heart.

Only by lowering her posture, only by writing reply letters to each of them, would they not think Lin Yueye was putting on airs, would they be willing not to slander her in the future, not to speak ill of her behind her back.

After all… the idea of destroying what can’t be obtained is a flaw imprinted in human nature.

Unless, the unattainable beauty has already sincerely expressed 【tactful】 rejection to you.

But…

How could 【Lin Yueye】 have known that day outside the room, there stood a young lady who “admired” her, with emotions bordering on madness?

“Yueye rejecting them… this makes me happy. But what if one of those letters happens to be particularly appealing to your thoughts…? Just thinking that you might be swayed by those petty people’s sweet talk… even for a second, no… even for a thought! It makes me feel suffocated… I absolutely cannot tolerate any disgusting filth intruding into Yueye’s world…”

Lin Yueye’s gaze was scanning those paper scraps, but Xia Mujin cupped her face, guiding it back to face her.

“So… wouldn’t it be better to not let these letters appear in front of you at all…? Alright… don’t look at these anymore, my Yueye… just look at me, okay?”

Ah ah… indeed, Xia Mujin is beautiful.

And it sounds like she’s considering my best interests.

Indeed, if you ask whether Lin Yueye thinks there’s any merit to her actions?

— Actually, there is.

Because constant compromise only leads to prolonged suffering and escalating intimidation.

Lin Yueye’s past life was solid proof of this.

You write rejection letters every day, your body is already weak, wasting part-time work hours, making your already lacking energy even more difficult to manage.

How long will you keep writing?

Can you guarantee that among those who write you love letters, there are no extremists who might seek revenge after receiving a rejection letter?

You can’t guarantee that.

Since nothing can be guaranteed, decisive action when necessary might not be a bad way to forge ahead.

It’s just that Xia Mujin’s approach was too radical.

— But she had already arranged a way out for Lin Yueye, just waiting for her to agree, to accept that “condition”. Then it wouldn’t matter if all the love letters were hidden without reply. For Xia Mujin’s influence, these things that could overwhelm Lin Yueye were trivial.

If I had never experienced reincarnation, if I were just a pitiful and ordinary little girl, perhaps some thoughts would have already overcome fear and tried to become infatuated and dependent on her by now.

But Lin Yueye isn’t that simple.

The previous 【Lin Yueye】 wasn’t either.

Thinking carefully…

Lin Yueye suddenly let out a bitter laugh.

“Mujin likes me… it’s still because of ‘selfishness’ after all.”

“Eh…?” Xia Mujin’s hand touching Yueye trembled, her face full of disbelief, “Yueye… what did you just say…? I’m… selfish?”

“Isn’t it?”

At this moment, Lin Yueye had become calmer instead.

She smiled slightly, raising her hand, fearlessly fiddling with the spiked collar in Xia Mujin’s hand, just like a little green tea expert at manipulating hearts. A casual smile made Xia Mujin’s heart instantly plunge into an ice cave.

“After all, I… also long to be loved. If a girl like Mujin could ‘sincerely’ like me, how happy I would be…”

“That’s not it!” Xia Mujin brought her urgent face close to Lin Yueye, as if arguing, “I do sincerely like you! Yueye! Why would you have such a terrible thought!”

“This isn’t called liking, is it… After all, their sweet talk is to possess me.”

A glance like clear blue waves is enough to stir up waves across the entire lake.

“And Mujin… seems to have the same idea…”

“Yueye! If you keep talking like this, I’m going to get angry!”

Xia Mujin pressed down hard on Lin Yueye’s shoulders, she was anxious, she seemed to have suffered a great injustice.

Perhaps for her, it really was like that.

“They’re just temporarily coveting your beauty! They have no awareness to bear the weight of your entire life! In the end, they will definitely destroy everything about you! But I swear… I swear! I will give you everything! You just need to say one word that you need me, I just need you to say one word, that you need me! Yueye can become happy, and I also want to prove that I’m alive! But why doesn’t Yueye ever say it… You need to say it…!”

“……”

See.

Her “self-proof”, isn’t it itself a kind of “selfishness”?

Unfortunately, the words she wanted to hear, 【Lin Yueye】 had never said.

Because she was a child with self-respect, a good child.

The abyss is created by you.

And you are willing to push this girl into the abyss, just hoping to become the only light in her despair.

If she’s not in despair, how can she fall in love with you, and how can you possess her?

And you long for the mutual salvation of dawn and dark moon, she gains happiness because of you, you gain reality because of her.

But you never imagined…

In the end, even when she stood on the high building and leaped, she didn’t choose the straw you offered on your own accord.

Just because, as a bird, she didn’t want to live in a cage.

Xia Mujin helplessly rested her head on Lin Yueye’s chest, her hands tightly gripping her clothes, trembling with fear.

Sometimes, the creator of the abyss can be very fragile too.

“When I heard you wanted to jump off the building… I was very scared, Yueye… I really don’t want to harm you… But I need you… You need me too, right? You don’t want to be lonely and miserable for your whole life… And I can just be your support…”

“Mm… but that’s only if you really like me, Mujin.”

“……”

The reality is, 【Lin Yueye】 is already dead.

Sigh.

Lin Yueye knew her words sounded heartless, but to be honest, she really didn’t want to be Xia Mujin’s dog.

If she just went along with this possessiveness, allowing her to do whatever she wanted to vent her desires, Lin Yueye could hardly imagine what she would become afterwards. She didn’t want to be as obedient as a little dog, that’s not called living.

Ha, it’s good that my words were clear and explicit enough, even Xia Mujin would have to give up temporarily… right?

— Click.

“Hm?”

Lin Yueye heard this ominous sound and looked down blankly.

Only to find that Xia Mujin, who was prostrate on her chest…

Had somehow already put the collar around her delicate neck.

And had locked the clasp.

Xia Mujin’s kneeling legs on the ground involuntarily squeezed together, rubbing against each other. Before her dark night-colored pupils lifted, Lin Yueye had already heard that heavy breath.

“Hiss… Yueye’s scent… huff… Yueye is right… I’m sure, I like you… I can’t live without you… If this isn’t called liking… then what is… I don’t understand, and I don’t want to understand…”

When those desire-filled eyes, seemingly interspersed with little hearts, met Lin Yueye’s stunned eyes.

Little Yueye realized she was in big trouble!

“Huff… Yueye should take off her clothes too… I’ll definitely be very gentle… to prove my love for you.”

“?!”

What are you trying to do to me?!

No, your old brother’s corpse is cold, lying in the hall less than 300 meters away in a straight line!