Push Me Away When I Come, Don't Hold Me Back When I Leave - Chapter 56

Chapter 56: Phantom Night

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“Your hand is injured, it must hurt a lot, I know that feeling…” Chu Suhe’s hand gently traced over the bandage on Xia Ruoming’s arm. For some reason, Chu Suhe seemed to speak much more fluently, without her usual shyness.

Her gaze toward Xia Ruoming appeared somewhat distant as she gently touched her own silk glove.

Looking at that slightly reddened face, Xia Ruoming suddenly seemed to understand something.

Chu Suhe’s alcohol tolerance was also very poor, no different from Xiao Qinghan!

“Suhe, the lakeside is very cold at night, we should head back first.” After speaking, Xia Ruoming took off her own coat and draped it over Chu Suhe’s shoulders. She was really worried that Chu Suhe might just fall asleep right there.

“Okay… okay…” Chu Suhe leaned directly against Xia Ruoming, clinging to her as they walked back step by step.

After returning to the tent, Xia Ruoming carefully laid Chu Suhe on the air mattress, but Chu Suhe, though already somewhat dazed, grabbed her sleeve.

“Don’t, don’t go, Ruoming.” Chu Suhe said softly.

“What’s wrong, Suhe, I’m here, it’s alright.” Sitting beside the air mattress, Xia Ruoming gently comforted Chu Suhe.

“Ruo… Ruoming, do you really like me…”

Chu Suhe sat up, leaning against Xia Ruoming, speaking softly. Xia Ruoming could feel her warm breath on her face.

“Of course, Class Monitor Chu, I’ve told you, I’ve never lied to you.”

“I’m so scared… I’m so afraid everything is fake. After meeting you, I’ve felt really happy, but I’m afraid everything will disappear in an instant, just like my home… Ruoming, please don’t leave me…”

The tent’s curtain hadn’t been pulled down yet, and in the moonlight, Xia Ruoming could see tears glistening on Chu Suhe’s face.

As Chu Suhe spoke, she removed her silk glove.

What should have been a fair and flawless hand was now in a horrifically pitiful state.

The back of her hand was covered with circles of small wounds, clearly cigarette burn scars. These marks were scattered across her skin like small beans, particularly striking. Whenever she lightly touched these marks, she would feel intense pain, both physical and emotional, as if countless needles were piercing her body.

“Am I very ugly, Ruoming? Seeing me like this, do you still like me?” Chu Suhe continued speaking softly, her voice carrying both melancholy and grief.

“It’s all in the past now, it’s okay now. I’m here now, I’m right here, and I won’t go anywhere, Suhe.” Xia Ruoming gently embraced her.

When He Ya had persuaded her to quit smoking for Chu Suhe’s sake, Xia Ruoming’s attitude was completely different from when she dealt with Xu Fengwu. Although she knew she might not be able to quit, she still agreed.

Because she knew Chu Suhe was afraid of cigarettes.

Even though she had seen it once in her previous life, seeing it again still caused Xia Ruoming immense heartache.

She even blamed herself for not being reborn earlier, for not preventing all of this from happening.

“Suhe, you’ll always be the most beautiful in the whole world, no matter what happened.”

Soft sobbing sounds came from the tent, tears continuously falling onto Xia Ruoming’s shoulder. Xia Ruoming held that scarred hand and gently placed it against her lips.

“It’s okay now, this will never happen again.”

Xia Ruoming kept stroking Chu Suhe’s head gently, knowing that perhaps nothing she said would help now, and that having a good cry was the best solution.

After wiping away her tears, Chu Suhe gazed at Xia Ruoming for a moment, then suddenly pushed her down onto the air mattress.

“Whoa!” Xia Ruoming clearly hadn’t expected Chu Suhe to do this and was startled.

“What’s wrong, Suhe?” Looking at Chu Suhe who was on top of her, Xia Ruoming asked softly.

“Let’s do it, Ruoming, isn’t this what you want?” A warm tongue lightly touched Xia Ruoming’s neck skin, making her shiver.

“Wait, Suhe…”

“What’s wrong, could it be that what Ruoming said was false? Ruoming, you don’t like me?” Chu Suhe’s voice was completely different from usual, that pitiful tone somehow full of allure.

Xia Ruoming felt her scalp tingle. How was Chu Suhe even more outrageous than Xiao Qinghan? Last time she was forcibly kissed, this time she was about to lose her virtue!

While Xia Ruoming was still thinking about what to do, Chu Suhe had already wrapped around her body like an octopus, that delicate soft sensation also making Xia Ruoming lose her senses.

Fortunately, it was the off-season for camping, and there was nobody in the forest area.

The tent’s curtain was lowered, and Chu Suhe’s somewhat cold fingers also caressed Xia Ruoming’s thigh.

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Dawn broke, with faint morning light.

Several clear bird calls awakened the young woman from her deep sleep.

Everything seemed just like usual, only the few crimson spots on the silver mat told of what happened last night.

Looking at Chu Suhe still sleeping soundly on the bed, Xia Ruoming showed a rather helpless smile.

Originally, Xia Ruoming had planned to wake her up for breakfast, but this little girl was exhausted from last night, letting her sleep a bit longer wasn’t a bad thing.

Xia Ruoming got up alone with slight dark circles under her eyes, set up a fire in the fire pit, and made herself a cup of coffee.

Even though a night had passed, Xia Ruoming still felt some bodily discomfort, especially when she saw the marks of passion all over her body.

The kiss marks all over her body were nothing, but some places being swollen and even bruised was the most outrageous… Xia Ruoming got a headache just thinking about what happened last night.

After making a simple breakfast with the gas stove, Xia Ruoming also woke up the three of them.

Chu Suhe walked out rubbing her sleepy eyes with her silk-gloved hand, and when their eyes met, both of them simultaneously looked away.

Actually, Chu Suhe had been too drunk last night, if it weren’t for the slight pain below, she might not even remember what happened last night.

Just thinking about last night’s events made her face heat up involuntarily.

How did I become like that… I hope Ruoming doesn’t hate me…

Perhaps it was facing her own feelings, or perhaps facing her own past.

Xia Ruoming felt that Chu Suhe had emerged from her cocoon like a butterfly, and her future self might be even more beautiful than in her previous life…

“Wow~ Susu, you seem like a different person!” He Ya said, immediately putting her arm around Chu Suhe’s shoulders as she came out.

“Re-really?” Chu Suhe returned to that timid tone, “Wh-where have I changed?”

“Hmm… I can’t say exactly, maybe it’s your aura, or maybe your complexion has improved?” He Ya smiled somewhat playfully, “Could it be that sleeping with Ruoming last night, you got nourished by love?”

Last night Xia Ruoming and Chu Suhe hadn’t made any noise, and He Ya had slept soundly, so this was just a joking comment.

But just this comment almost made Xia Ruoming and Chu Suhe fall silent together.

“N-no way! What are you saying, He Ya!” As if trying to cover up her guilt, Chu Suhe began hitting He Ya’s shoulder with her small pink fists, while He Ya laughed and dodged, the two of them chasing each other around the campfire for quite a while.

After breakfast, Xia Ruoming read some detective novels in the tent, while Chu Suhe played cards with He Ya and Ji Chuan. Everything was as normal as could be, except for their coats wrapped tightly around them to hide the marks, which was somewhat strange.

Afterward, even after being driven home by Zhong Hui, both of them still tossed and turned in bed, unable to sleep…