Push Me Away When I Come, Don't Hold Me Back When I Leave - Chapter 46

Chapter 46: Whether Worthy or Not, What Does It Matter?

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After announcing the scores in class one by one, everyone was a bit excited.

“Most students’ scores have improved to some degree, which is very good, but some students’ scores have actually decreased. Don’t be discouraged, as this mock exam was intentionally designed to be slightly more difficult. The key is to identify your problems in time,” Xiao Qinghan announced loudly after distributing the test papers.

Xia Ruoming listened to Ji Chuan’s score and was genuinely happy for him. He Ya had already exceeded Jinling University’s admission line. Although he hadn’t reached Jinling University’s score yet, he could see hope and a path forward. She believed that if Ji Chuan got into an average first-tier university, He Ya would even give up Jinling University to follow him there, but Xia Ruoming didn’t want He Ya to choose such a path. If there was a way to have both, why should He Ya make sacrifices?

Looking at Xu Fengwu who was staring intently at Xia Ruoming, Li Jing gently shook her shoulder.

“What’s wrong, Fengwu?” Li Jing asked.

“Nothing,” Xu Fengwu withdrew her gaze, brushing Li Jing off.

“You haven’t fallen for that bastard Xia Ruoming again, have you? Look at her, shortly after leaving you, she’s either being intimate with Chu Suhe or flirting with Teacher Xiao. Why are you still thinking about such a player?” Li Jing said somewhat exasperatedly, seeing Xu Fengwu’s somewhat vacant expression.

“Besides, someone like Xia Ruoming is no different from a wildflower by the road. How could she be worthy of you, Fengwu? Her having the chance to pursue you was her luck, it’s her own stupidity that she gave up!”

“Remember what she said about me in the cafeteria before? She never even apologized for what she said about me there!”

Xu Fengwu turned her head, looking indifferently at Li Jing, returning to her usual cold gaze, completely different from when she looked at Xia Ruoming.

Whether worthy or not, what does it matter…

Is Chu Suhe, who comes from a humble background, worthy of Xia Ruoming?

Is that cheap hair clip worth just a few yuan worthy of Xia Ruoming?

Hasn’t Xia Ruoming always protected Chu Suhe well, always worn that hair clip that’s worth only a few yuan?

Why keep instilling these ideas about worthiness?

Shouldn’t love simply be mutual affection between two people?

“What… what’s wrong, Fengwu?” Li Jing was startled by Xu Fengwu’s reaction. In the past, though her gaze was also indifferent, it was never this kind of cold look that she could feel.

Xu Fengwu remained silent, but that cold gaze made Li Jing’s hair stand on end.

“What… what exactly happened, Fengwu?”

Li Jing was even stammering now, she was truly panicking.

Because although she treated Xu Fengwu as a friend, she had indeed been using her all along!

Many people would pursue Xu Fengwu, and because she was Xu Fengwu’s best friend, those people would constantly try to please her too, hoping she could put in a good word for them. Whenever they gave gifts to Xu Fengwu, they would also give her one. Whatever Xu Fengwu could get, she could get too.

Being by Xu Fengwu’s side, that false status was elevated to the same level as Xu Fengwu.

But Xia Ruoming never cared about these things, at most she would save her a seat in the cafeteria and bring her a bottle of water when bringing drinks, which is why she always hated Xia Ruoming.

She constantly told Xu Fengwu about all the ways Xia Ruoming wasn’t good enough, instilling the idea that Xia Ruoming wasn’t worthy of her, purely because Li Jing herself disliked Xia Ruoming.

“Feng… Fengwu, you haven’t really fallen for Xia Ruoming, have you?” Li Jing continued stammering, but received no response from Xu Fengwu. If Xia Ruoming were to take that position, she would be the first one kicked away from Xu Fengwu’s side.

In the past, Xu Fengwu always listened to everything Li Jing said, and she herself felt that Li Jing was right… Although she didn’t know why, or what exactly was right about it, it just always seemed to make sense somehow.

By Xu Fengwu’s side, Li Jing could enjoy feeling like the center of attention, similarly enjoying the flattery of those around her. But all this had one prerequisite condition.

That she remained Xu Fengwu’s best friend.

Otherwise, who was Li Jing? Without Xu Fengwu by her side, who would indulge her princess complex?

Over these years, Li Jing had often bossed around classmates, relying on her status as Xu Fengwu’s best friend, and was particularly fond of mocking and ridiculing Xia Ruoming. Everyone gave her some face because she was close to Xu Fengwu, swallowing their anger, but if she lost this protective status, who knows what might happen. So she could only continue to manipulate Xu Fengwu to maintain this relationship. Xu Fengwu herself didn’t have many other friends and didn’t understand what was wrong with this relationship, so she just blindly accepted Li Jing’s suggestions.

Whether it was Li Jing saying the things Xia Ruoming gave weren’t worthy of her, or saying Xia Ruoming’s love was too ordinary and cheap, Xu Fengwu accepted it all. Even the words of rejection on the rooftop that day were taught by Li Jing, intended to make Xia Ruoming completely lose heart and stop pursuing Xu Fengwu.

It was because of what Li Jing just said that Xu Fengwu recalled Xia Ruoming’s actions in the cafeteria that day. After mocking Li Jing, Xia Ruoming didn’t care about Li Jing’s reaction, but kept watching her instead.

Thinking about it now, Xia Ruoming just wanted to know who she would choose between Li Jing and her. From the moment Xu Fengwu remained silent, Xia Ruoming had already understood her choice. What truly broke Xia Ruoming’s heart wasn’t the rejection under the moonlit rooftop that day, but Xu Fengwu’s choice in the cafeteria that day.

Xia Ruoming had given her so much, yet couldn’t compare to Li Jing who only knew how to whisper in her ear.

Perhaps it was time to correct all this.

“Li Jing, let’s end our friendship. We were never really friends anyway,” Xu Fengwu said coldly, as if she and Li Jing had never been friends or best friends.

“Why… why? Fengwu, weren’t we so close?” Li Jing was completely stunned. Before she could even apologize, Xu Fengwu had already spoken words of severance.

Xu Fengwu suddenly smiled and softly said to Li Jing.

“Because, didn’t you say that people by my side should be worthy of me? I don’t think you’re worthy of me, Li Jing.”

The fact that Li Jing could manipulate Xu Fengwu showed that she was an extremely clever person, although this cleverness wasn’t used properly.

No matter what reason Xu Fengwu gave, Li Jing would always have a chance to defend herself, to make excuses, and to salvage everything.

But not this reason.

Because the reason she used most often to make Xu Fengwu stay away from someone she disliked was that that person wasn’t worthy of Xu Fengwu.

Li Jing leaned against the back of her seat, pale-faced. She couldn’t even find any reason to keep Xu Fengwu. The boomerang from the past had finally hit her instead.