Push Me Away When I Come, Don't Hold Me Back When I Leave - Chapter 37

Chapter 37: Could It Be You Want to See…

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Xia Ruoming actually didn’t like who she was in this life. In the past, she was socially adept and clever, knowing how to make her life better, which was why she chose to dedicate herself to Jiang Ruhua without hesitation.

But after being reborn, she somehow became indecisive again.

Xu Fengwu, who stayed by Xia Ruoming’s side, also found her very unfamiliar. Though she was the same person, it was as if she contained a completely different soul from before. In the past, she would tell her everything, but now she seemed reluctant to say an extra word to her.

“It’s almost 12, aren’t you going to sleep? Staying up late isn’t good for your health. Even if you want to get into a good university, you need to stay healthy,” Xu Fengwu shook Xia Ruoming’s shoulder.

“Mm… you go shower first, I’ll go after you’re done,” Xia Ruoming said softly to Xu Fengwu without stopping her writing.

Xu Fengwu nodded, then took out one of Xia Ruoming’s shirts from the wardrobe and prepared to take a bath.

“Fengwu, who said you could wear my clothes…” Xia Ruoming said with some displeasure when she saw Xu Fengwu take her clothes. Perhaps in the past she would have welcomed it, but their relationship was different now. She never liked other women wearing her clothes, and today’s Xu Fengwu was no exception.

“Could it be that Ruoming wants to see me completely bare? That’s fine too.”

After saying this, Xu Fengwu didn’t wait for Xia Ruoming’s reaction and went into the bathroom with her shirt.

Leaving Xia Ruoming sitting at the desk feeling confused as the cold wind blew in from the window.

In the bathroom, Xu Fengwu looked at herself in the full-length mirror. The subtle fragrance from Xia Ruoming’s clothes reached her nose. With her face flushed red, she looked unusually flustered. She didn’t know why she had said such things without thinking.

Xu Fengwu took off her clothes and put them in the basket. Then she placed her fair, long legs in the bathtub and lay down completely. Xia Ruoming’s bathroom was very small, and the bathtub was tiny too, not even half the size of her own at home. It felt a bit cramped to soak in, but Xu Fengwu liked it here and wanted to live together with Xia Ruoming.

The warm water strangely aroused desire. Xu Fengwu raised her hand from the bathtub, bubbles sliding down her arm. Thinking constantly about Xia Ruoming made her whole being somewhat dazed.

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“I’m done, Ruoming, you can go shower now.”

After her bath, Xu Fengwu sat on Xia Ruoming’s bed wearing just a shirt. The ill-fitting shirt seemed unable to completely conceal the waves of Xu Fengwu’s chest, with that soft fair bosom about to spill out. One of her perfectly proportioned long legs lay flat on the bed while she hugged the other. Her head rested on her knee as she turned to look at Xia Ruoming. The view beneath the shirt was partially visible, and combined with her still-damp cascading black hair, countless people would willingly fall at her feet.

Even Xia Ruoming, who had seen countless beauties in high society in her previous life, was left speechless at this moment.

“What’s wrong? Am I that beautiful?” Seeing Xia Ruoming sitting there in a daze, Xu Fengwu couldn’t help but cover her mouth and laugh softly.

“Forget it, I’m not interested. But with your looks, those young masters and socialite ladies would probably all like you.”

Xia Ruoming intended to use sharp words to resolve the current awkwardness, and it seemed quite effective.

“No matter how beautiful, you don’t appreciate it now, do you? Besides, Ruoming, you were stunned just now, which shows your thoughts aren’t pure anymore~” She pursed her lips, playing with her hair while speaking to Xia Ruoming.

At these words, Xia Ruoming was completely speechless.

In the past, her feelings for Xu Fengwu weren’t entirely because of her feminine charms, but more about that love at first sight destiny. So even if she had fantasies about Xu Fengwu, there were never any colored thoughts. She would never directly say how beautiful Xu Fengwu was, nor make obviously suggestive jokes about her appearance.

Could it be as she said, that after being reborn, her thoughts had become impure?

Hearing Xu Fengwu’s quiet laughter, Xia Ruoming shook off the strange thoughts in her head and went to take a shower with her clothes.

After a series of clattering sounds, a box of ice was poured into the bathtub.

Ever since Xu Fengwu’s personality changed dramatically, she had been constantly clinging to her, and also planted a special seed belonging to Xu Fengwu in her heart. As days passed, not only could that seed not be removed, but its roots grew deeper and deeper.

The ice bath made Xia Ruoming’s skin break out in countless goosebumps, but only this way could she barely calm down.

“Huff…” Xia Ruoming, soaking in the ice water, took a deep breath. She was no longer the newly “18-year-old” girl from back then, but someone who had lived two lives. After seeing Xu Fengwu’s post-bath appearance, she clearly felt her heart beating much more intensely than before.

“Xu Fengwu… what exactly do you want this time?”

Xia Ruoming muttered in the bathtub, but would never get an answer.

Just like how Chu Suhe would never get the answer to why Xia Ruoming was so good to her.

On the bed, Xu Fengwu secretly looked at Xia Ruoming’s sketchbook while gently stroking those pencil drawings with her slender fingers. These sketches were from the most beautiful times she spent with Xia Ruoming, and were her most precious treasures.

Seeing the doorknob move slightly, Xu Fengwu hid the sketchbook and pretended nothing had happened.

The impact Xia Ruoming’s post-bath appearance had on Xu Fengwu was even greater than the sensory shock Xia Ruoming had received earlier.

Xia Ruoming’s chest wasn’t very large, but her other proportions were truly perfect, her tall figure, long legs, the faintly visible athletic abs beneath the white shirt, those melancholic eyes behind slightly wet hair, even Xu Fengwu had to admit her figure was really good and she was truly beautiful.

“Your hair is so wet, be careful not to catch a cold. Let me dry it for you.” Saying this, Xu Fengwu took out a hair dryer from the drawer, Liu Ruoxue had told her where everything was that day.

Xia Ruoming wanted to say she could do it herself, but seeing Xu Fengwu’s expectant eyes, the words ultimately stayed in her mouth, unspoken.

Xu Fengwu took out a sandalwood comb, brushing Xia Ruoming’s long hair while drying it with the hair dryer.

“Ruoming, were you born liking women?” Xu Fengwu asked a strange question while handling Xia Ruoming’s hair.

“Hmm? I didn’t know Xu Fengwu used to have a nickname like ‘Ten Thousand Whys’ or would fuss about asking such things.” Although Xia Ruoming’s tone was calm, her expression became very strange at that moment.

Xu Fengwu had really changed too much. Before, she was like a cold and proud phoenix, never caring about others. Since when did she become interested in such things?

“It’s okay, isn’t this girls’ night talk time? If Ruoming doesn’t want to say, I can go first, I truly was born this way.”