Push Me Away When I Come, Don't Hold Me Back When I Leave - Chapter 177

Chapter 177: Final Chapter – The Ideal Village Where the South Wind Blows

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【The main text is at the end. Above are some of the author’s random thoughts. If this affects your mood, I apologize.】

【Some words before the start: I really wanted to properly conclude this book, whether it’s Xia Ruoming (although not as tragic in reality), An Jinrou (although not a magical character in reality), Mei who’s hidden in the dark storylines (although not as dark in reality), as well as Chu Suhe, Luo Qingxuan, Jiang Ruhua and the Ye sisters all have real-life models. There’s also the unbreakable fate between Liu Ruoxue and Liu Qingyun, why Xia Ruoming has mild mental disorders, what past life connection exists between Xiao Qinghan and Xia Ruoming, why Ye Xue would help Xia Ruoming pick up what she never had, why An Jinrou would help Luo Qingxuan reverse time, why Xu Fengwu is completely different in this life compared to her past life, the author really wanted to properly write all these things. Actually, short stories for each part were already written, then polished into longer pieces during daily work. The author usually gets off work at 8 PM, and has put a lot of effort into polishing this novel.】

【All of this isn’t just a story about Xia Ruoming obtaining redemption. The Xia Ruoming from the past life actually had many shadows in her heart, which is why she said not to torture her with another reincarnation. In this life, although everything seems to go as she wishes, Xia Ruoming who is no longer young doesn’t quite fit with this world. Because of this, despite having learned how to let go and be strong in her past life, she becomes indecisive again at this time.】

【Due to certain things, the eight people from the past life didn’t get their respective good endings.】

【Xia Ruoming met many right people, but the timing of meeting them wasn’t right, ultimately ending up with a lonely demise. However, some things cannot be changed by human power, as it is heaven’s will.】

【Constrained by the Empress’s heavenly luck, the Sun and Moon couldn’t become lovers. Xu Fengwu wasn’t as cold and unfeeling as she appeared on the surface. After Ye Xue weakened Ye Han’s heavenly luck, inexplicable feelings surfaced again, but she remained troubled by this ill-fated relationship throughout her life. When Xia Ruoming was on her deathbed, Xu Fengwu was the first person by her side. Ironically, the first person was her, and the last person was still her.】

【The Star who received the Moon’s light spent her whole life following the Moon, but the Moon had already signed a contract with the Devil and could not become the one to illuminate her night sky. This was the true portrayal of Chu Suhe’s past life. Having received redemption from Xia Ruoming, she could no longer accommodate anyone else in her heart, but Xia Ruoming had already fallen into Jiang Ruhua’s snare, unable to break free for her entire life. Walking lonely at the front, did she ever know about Chu Suhe following behind her? If the author has to answer, perhaps she did know…】

【Just because in her youth, Xia Ruoming said “Sister, you sing so beautifully, will you only sing for Ruoming from now on?” and “Sister, when Ruoming grows up, I want to marry you~”, Ye Xue became quiet and reserved. She kept her promise to Xia Ruoming, but when Xia Ruoming grew up, she had forgotten her childhood memories. That ethereal voice only sang for Xia Ruoming throughout her life, and whoever didn’t let her sing for Xia Ruoming, she would destroy them. She waited for Xia Ruoming for exactly 35 years, only to receive news of Xia Ruoming’s death. She also learned from Mei that Xia Ruoming’s current state was all because of her good sister Ye Han. At that moment, Ye Xue truly fell into a quagmire of choices. Perhaps you rarely see people willing to give up their own happiness for others, but Ye Xue was exactly like that. Caught between her sister and her “sister”, she finally made a decision to give her fortune to that unlucky “sister”, allowing her to be reborn in the next life.】

【Ye Han was born with good fortune, but was that really the case? Rather than saying Ye Han was heaven’s chosen one, it would be more accurate to say that fate is ruthless, fate is just. The heavenly fortune of the Ye sisters that could transcend time itself was fate’s compensation to Ye Han, or more precisely, compensation to Liu Qingyun. That flowing heavenly fortune could let her take anything, but after getting Xu Fengwu, she wasn’t truly happy, because Xu Fengwu was like someone she knew by chance in the past, but only just similar.】

【Jiang Ruhua, who always felt lonely no matter when, used a contract in her past life to exchange for Xia Ruoming’s body, and also her heart, but both chose to remain silent and never learned each other’s true feelings. However, the two probably had real destiny, Jiang Ruhua’s tomb only contained clothes, while Xia Ruoming’s tomb was completely empty. Having excessive love for Xia Ruoming, she couldn’t completely lose her memories even after reincarnation. In the past life, she was the one who gave Xia Ruoming agoraphobia, yet because of the agoraphobia, she got Xia Ruoming back in this life. The two were destined to be unable to escape each other.】

【Because of her childhood friend filter, Luo Qingxuan chased after Xia Ruoming for an entire lifetime, even willing to exchange her life for Xia Ruoming to have another chance. Always following behind Xia Ruoming, Luo Qingxuan didn’t have the courage to let Xia Ruoming know she had pursued her for life. The past life’s Xia Ruoming didn’t know about this either. Rather, after 6 years of “never meeting”, Xia Ruoming had forgotten about that childhood friend. Despite this, when this life’s Luo Qingxuan confessed to Xia Ruoming, it still stirred up quite a wave in Xia Ruoming’s heart. Looking at Xia Ruoming’s gentle gaze, Luo Qingxuan also confirmed that the person before her was the one she wanted to protect for life.】

【Watching snow fall in the mortal world with Xia Ruoming, watching the brilliant stars with Xia Ruoming, returning together with Xia Ruoming while still young at heart, these were the only things Xiao Qinghan wanted to do. Gentle, beautiful, considerate, virtuous, it seemed as if Xiao Qinghan was favored by fate, with all the beautiful things in this world focused on her, except for being born into an unfortunate family. In the past life, Xia Ruoming and Xiao Qinghan watched the snow scene together at Killarney Park. At that time, Xia Ruoming told Xiao Qinghan that if she had known earlier, perhaps she could have saved teacher, and Xiao Qinghan’s unchanging deadpan face finally showed a smile again, telling Xia Ruoming that if she had known Xia Ruoming would save her, she wouldn’t have made such a choice, at that time, they never knew they would be reborn.】

【Chu Suhe and Xu Fengwu supported each other to grow; Ye Xue, who started over, planned from the beginning to let Xia Ruoming transcend time; Luo Qingxuan, who liked to ship couples, fell down again and again but finally gained her own treasure; Jiang Ruhua, who embarked on the old path with fragments of memories from her past life, finally found her own redemption. The author was actually very seriously writing towards 2 million words. This book had 50,000 views after the book test, and the author was really happy, but it was just that one day, after which the book was banned.】

【The author also thought about continuing this story on jjwxc, properly concluding this novel, but there’s no chance anymore. More than half of this book’s copyright is in Fanqie’s hands, it’s impossible even if the author wants to.】

【By the way, to that person who stole my book on SFACG: I was axed, hope you’re happy copying it, hope you make big money. Rather… what I hope is that someone can finish Xia Ruoming’s story, even if it’s not me (bitter smile).】

【If someday Fanqie lifts the ban on this book, perhaps I will continue this book again. So, goodbye. Everyone, the jianghu road is long, we’ll meet again another day. I will rest a bit in September, then start my new book “An’s Magic House”, also yuri, hope those who like yuri will also support it.】

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8 years later.

Chengdu, Muma Mountain Villa District.

After everything ended, Xia Ruoming still chose to return to Chengdu, bringing Liu Qingyun and Xia Jingsong here to retire, and specially bought a villa.

No matter how good Hangzhou was, Chengdu was Xia Ruoming’s home.

He Ya and Ji Chuan also had a daughter, and specifically asked Xia Ruoming to name her. After several declines, Xia Ruoming gave their daughter the name “Gui Yi”, from “Self-harvested sweet grass, truly beautiful and unique.” hoping their daughter would be gentle and pure, yet brave and strong.

He Ya often visited Xia Ruoming’s residence, continuing the best friend relationship from when she was with Chu Suhe. Ji Chuan also occasionally played DOTA 2 with his “sworn sister” like they did in high school, watching OG’s comeback against LGD and two consecutive championships together, watching peak AME’s dream shatter in Seattle, and watching GG’s grand slam throughout the year…

However, sometimes Xiao Qinghan and others would complain that Ji Chuan played games with Xia Ruoming too late into the night, making them miss that day’s girls’ gathering.

“Sister Qinghan, I’m so hungry, is breakfast not ready yet?” Ye Han, climbing out of bed, rubbed her eyes and said drowsily, wearing her sleeping cap and pajamas, looking completely lazy without any young lady’s dignity.

“It’ll be ready soon, Hanhan, wait a little longer~” Xiao Qinghan’s voice came from the kitchen.

“All you do is rush rush rush! You lazy bum, if you want to eat so badly, go cook yourself!” Jiang Ruhua, sitting on the sofa listening to Xia Ruoming’s newly recorded song, shouted at the ‘lazy’ Ye Han in front of her.

Even after so many years, these two friends’ habit of bickering hadn’t changed at all, they always had to argue about everything.

There was a white paper that looked like it had a table drawn on it stuck to Jiang Ruhua’s back, with some strange things recorded on it.

【Monday: Ye Xue】

【Tuesday: Hanhan】

【Wednesday: Luo Qingxuan】

【Thursday: Fengwu′?`】

【Friday: Little Princess】

【Saturday: Susu???????】

【Sunday: Sister Qinghan】

Each name was written in completely different handwriting, and it was covered with various red fingerprints.

“Alright alright, you two stop arguing, today’s breakfast is potato pancakes with smoked meat sandwiches, by the way, this sandwich is made with bread I baked myself, come try it quickly.” Xiao Qinghan arranged everyone’s breakfast on the table in sequence, and also served several cups of coffee made by Luo Qingxuan.

“Hmph, for Sister Qinghan’s sake, I won’t argue with you.” Ye Han glared at Jiang Ruhua, saying dissatisfied.

“As if you could win an argument against me anyway.” Jiang Ruhua still maintained that disdainful appearance, not giving Ye Han any ground.

However, the identical rings they wore on their hands, engraved with Xia Ruoming’s name, seemed to disagree with both of their opinions.

After both of them sat at the dining table, Xu Fengwu slowly walked out of the room, still yawning.

“Susu, what are you reading? You seem so absorbed?” Xu Fengwu saw Chu Suhe sitting motionless at the dining table reading a book, and became curious. Under Xia Ruoming’s ‘careful nurturing’, Chu Suhe had now become a ‘good daughter’ who learned to take care of herself, and usually wouldn’t be so absorbed in reading that she’d forget to eat breakfast.

“Huh? What did you say, Fengwu?” Chu Suhe seemed not to have heard clearly what Xu Fengwu was saying, casually asked, but still didn’t lift her head.

“Chu~”

Xu Fengwu directly kissed Chu Suhe’s cheek and continued asking: “I said what are you reading, Susu? You’re so absorbed in it, eat breakfast first, otherwise Ruoming will pinch your little cheeks again.”

“Ah… this is Teacher Xiao’s newly published mystery novel, it’s about someone atoning for another person’s sins, it’s really interesting, do you want to read it too, Fengwu?” After hearing Xu Fengwu’s words, Chu Suhe finally noticed that breakfast had already been placed in front of her, so she closed the unfinished novel and put it aside, preparing to start breakfast.

“Little Suhe, how many times have I told you, don’t call me Teacher Xiao, call me Sister Qinghan!” Xiao Qinghan poked half her head out from the kitchen again, saying somewhat “angrily”.

Chu Suhe covered her mouth and giggled softly, actually she deliberately called her this way, teasing Xiao Qinghan who was like a holy mother outside of bed and apparently the main wife was quite interesting too.

“Just knows how to tease Sister Qinghan, the previously cute Susu has learned to be bad now.” Xu Fengwu said while poking Chu Suhe’s nose tip, feeling ticklish Chu Suhe even rubbed it.

“Isn’t that because Fengwu taught me well~” Chu Suhe even lightly bit Xu Fengwu’s earlobe, blowing a hot breath into her ear.

“Ah! You little devil!” Xu Fengwu immediately covered her ears, “You know my ears are sensitive right, bad Susu, I’m going to tickle you!”

“Hahaha… no, Fengwu, haha…” Chu Suhe laughed while avoiding Xu Fengwu’s hands tickling her waist.

In the study, Xia Ruoming and Ye Xue were collaboratively creating a painting.

Xia Ruoming meticulously refined the painting scroll bit by bit, while Ye Xue tirelessly washed brushes and adjusted paints for Xia Ruoming beside her.

This super large painting scroll “group photo” of eight people was finally about to be completed by Xia Ruoming. This painting was like those overly realistic dreams Xia Ruoming had before, yet somewhat different.

In this painting scroll, everyone wore wedding dresses and held flowers, all with flower-like smiles and painted-like eyes.

“Was this your plan from the beginning?” Ye Xue stood beside Xia Ruoming, asking with a smile.

“If I say it wasn’t, would you believe me, sister?” Xia Ruoming raised her eyebrows, continuing to create her painting. She certainly knew what Ye Xue meant, but at the beginning, she had no plans to live like Yotsuba, let alone meet Xu Fengwu again. Being able to reach today, perhaps everything was fate’s arrangement.

“Of course I don’t believe it. When I first found out my most beloved sister was actually a player, I was really heartbroken.” Ye Xue said while pouting, but unfortunately couldn’t squeeze out tears to act no matter how she tried.

“So fake, sister, your acting isn’t even sincere.”

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In the living room, Luo Qingxuan pushed open the window, and warm spring breeze immediately filled every corner of the room, also blowing Luo Qingxuan’s long hair behind her forehead.

“Another day with the south wind blowing, how nice.” Bathing in the warm sunlight, Luo Qingxuan said softly, the ring on her hand also glinting in the sunlight.

“Yes, it’s really nice.” Xu Fengwu also responded, “The south wind is still so warm.”

The maiden’s gaze looked towards the horizon, as if returning to that still innocent time.

(The End)

(Actually not, it was axed)