Push Me Away When I Come, Don't Hold Me Back When I Leave - Chapter 133

Chapter 133: Shattered Memories

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After seeing Li Wuya had no objections, Xia Ruoming also finished explaining everything she planned to explain, then left the game development department.

“Would you like some coffee, Miss Ye?” Xia Ruoming softly asked Ye Han, who was resting with her eyes closed while propping her chin with her hand out of boredom.

“Oh? Boss, are you treating?” Ye Han seemed to show interest, her gaze fixed steadily on Xia Ruoming’s eyes without wavering.

“Miss Ye needs me to treat for just a cup of coffee?” Looking at Ye Han, who was so different from both her past understanding and the rumors in their circles, Xia Ruoming asked teasingly.

“Of course, I can’t bear to spend the money. Boss, are you treating or not?” Ye Han’s face still wore that smile that seemed to harbor some kind of scheme.

“Alright, alright, I’ll treat. Also, Miss Ye, please don’t call me boss anymore, just call me Ruoming. I really can’t handle you calling me boss.” Hearing Ye Han calling her boss repeatedly, Xia Ruoming really felt uncomfortable and hurriedly stopped her from continuing, who knows what this crazy woman was plotting every day.

Ye Han gave a light smile without replying, only walking up to match Xia Ruoming’s pace as they moved forward together.

Like Takeshi Kamitani’s magic, Ye Han somehow took another photo of herself with Xia Ruoming without even Xia Ruoming herself noticing.

This photo was, unsurprisingly, sent to Jiang Ruhua’s phone.

“Hey, Ruhua, I’m going to secretly have coffee with Ruoming, you won’t be angry, right? If you’re angry you must say it, though it won’t matter since I’ll still go on my date regardless of what you say.”

Originally wanting to see how anxious Jiang Ruhua would get, she was disappointed this time, as she waited for a long while without getting Jiang Ruhua’s reply. Feeling bored, she finally closed the chat window.

On the other side.

At Jiang Ruhua’s villa.

The phone screen that had fallen on the bed was still lit, with Jiang Ruhua’s unsent “get lost” still in the message box.

Two seconds after seeing that photo, Jiang Ruhua suddenly felt an intense pain in her head, the kind of pain that felt like there were wooden splinters stuck in her brain that couldn’t be pulled out, causing sharp pain with even the slightest movement.

Countless fragments of memories appeared in Jiang Ruhua’s mind again, and at this moment she finally understood that these weren’t some stress-induced hallucinations, but memories hidden deep in her mind from some unknown time, because right now there wasn’t anything that could trigger such a stress response.

She saw the blue-haired woman and the chestnut-haired woman walking side by side in the company corridor, exactly like the composition in the photo. However, that blue-haired girl’s hair had already turned misty blue, different from the ice blue hair she had seen in the past.

The blue-haired girl was smoking while walking, that carefully made-up face had a unique beauty.

But this wasn’t what she cared about, this time she clearly heard the conversation between the two people in her memory.

When she heard how they addressed each other, Jiang Ruhua was already beyond surprised.

“Xia Ruoming, your art exhibition is ready, you can attend it yourself on Friday.” The chestnut-haired woman in the memory appeared extremely exhausted, that feeling of mental fatigue was written all over her face.

“Thank you, little princess.” Though the blue-haired woman spoke words of gratitude, there wasn’t a trace of gratitude on her face.

Obviously, no matter how much she didn’t believe it, how much she couldn’t accept such a thing, the two people in the memory were ‘Xia Ruoming’ and ‘Jiang Ruhua’.

As more and more fragmentary memories came back to her, Jiang Ruhua also analyzed that in this story, she should have succeeded in what she wanted to do, bringing Xia Ruoming into her small world. But she also understood that someone like Xia Ruoming, with the integrity of a pedantic scholar, was willing to sell her soul only because she wasn’t resigned to her fate, Xia Ruoming wanted to take back what was hers.

She treated all this as the price that had to be paid for attempting to grasp power.

Jiang Ruhua got her body, but didn’t get her heart. By the time Jiang Ruhua had a place in Xia Ruoming’s heart, Jiang Ruhua herself couldn’t wait any longer, she felt she was just a tool Xia Ruoming used to achieve success, that’s why Xia Ruoming was always so cold towards her.

She made a decision, she wanted to make that woman understand that everything was given by her, and without her, that woman was nothing.

She could let Xia Ruoming embrace the starry river she dreamed of, and she could also make these starlight perish in an instant.

She could let Xia Ruoming soar with the wind up to the clouds, and naturally, she could also make Xia Ruoming fall from grace and shatter into pieces.

She had thought that someday Xia Ruoming wouldn’t be able to bear that kind of life at rock bottom, would turn back and submit to her, so she waited for a long time, until finally she received… news of Xia Ruoming’s death.

This time as she listened to the memories, she could hear the inner thoughts of both protagonists in the play.

When she saw Xia Ruoming quietly leaving, and heard Xia Ruoming’s departing thoughts were “It’s such a pity that I didn’t end up with the little princess I like. Though I understand this was just a transaction, I feel so lucky to have received her tenderness for so long. I’ve never blamed her for anything. In fact, I’m truly grateful. I won’t take a single thing of hers with me, everything would be left here exactly as it was,” Jiang Ruhua’s entire face was already covered in tears.

Though it was just a fragment of scenes from who knows where, Jiang Ruhua was deeply moved, she didn’t even care if these memories were real.

When she saw that fragment of memory where she herself softly asked at Xia Ruoming’s grave “Have you ever forgiven me?”, tears had completely soaked her collar.

She knew that Xia Ruoming in the story had never blamed her once, not even had a moment of dissatisfaction with her.

If there was never any resentment to begin with, what was there to forgive?

Moreover, in Xia Ruoming’s final moments before death, the first person she thought of was still her, and what Xia Ruoming regretted most in life wasn’t wasting many years following Xu Fengwu, but rather not being able to reconcile with her in the end.

Although all this really moved her, there was one point she found truly strange, one of Xia Ruoming’s regrets was not being able to marry Chu Suhe. She had investigated many things about Xia Ruoming during this period, and Chu Suhe seemed to have only had brief interactions with Xia Ruoming, if the Xia Ruoming in her memories was the same, why would she regret not being able to be with Chu Suhe?

If she guessed correctly, the Xia Ruoming in these scenes had been kept by her very early on, so when did Xia Ruoming form a connection with Chu Suhe? If she really liked Chu Suhe this much at this point in time, then why would the proud Xia Ruoming accept her contract in the future? Were these scenes really the same as reality?

Jiang Ruhua didn’t think these things were her memories, she recalled her previous speculation again, it was an ability to cross time and foresee the future, she was actually quite afraid that these things she saw would become reality.