Push Me Away When I Come, Don't Hold Me Back When I Leave - Chapter 108

Chapter 108: Choices and Redemption

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“Whether to use this power or not depends entirely on your thoughts and choices, customer. As I said before, I don’t know what kind of price you will pay.”

Shop owner An Jinrou’s face always wore a playful smile, which Xu Fengwu could glimpse through her veil.

But that smile quickly froze on her face.

An Jinrou opened an old box placed in the corner, some compartments contained gold-trimmed tarot cards, while most spaces were empty with nothing placed in them.

The moment the box was opened, An Jinrou noticed the empty compartment in the bottom right corner of the box, and the watching-a-show smile on her face immediately turned extremely ugly.

The card that was originally placed in that compartment was 【The World – 世界】.

How could An Jinrou not know that the power of the world card was 【borrowed time】, a power capable of transcending time and making everything start over.

As the last card of the Major Arcana deck, 【The World】 sealed the remnant shadow of the Yog bubble from her world, the power of the Key of Gates could allow this card to borrow time from fate, but using the world card would lose that unfathomable future.

Such fortune about the future was unknowable and invisible. If this fortune originally allowed its owner to live to 90 years old, then without this fortune, she might die at 20 years old.

How could ordinary people bear the price that accompanies the time bestowed by fate?

She could never have imagined that she would use the world card on someone else at some point in time.

The world card had turned to ashes, showing that someone had forcibly reversed time with it.

“What’s wrong, shop owner?” Seeing An Jinrou standing there in a daze, Xu Fengwu thought for a moment that something had happened to her.

“…No, nothing…” An Jinrou shook her head, then sighed, “Let’s continue talking about your matter.”

An Jinrou opened the lock of the glass case in the box and took out a gold-trimmed sun card. Unlike those ordinary tarot cards used for divination, the patterns surrounded by gold trim were all platinum white, with light sky blue as complement.

“This card is yours now, whether to use it or not is your decision.” As she spoke, she handed the sun card toward Xu Fengwu.

Xu Fengwu received the tarot card with both hands, holding it carefully. This sun card was slightly smaller than the tarot cards used in the shop, only the size of her palm. She thought it should be very light, but when she held it, it felt like a stone tablet. At first glance, this tarot card was very well made, even if it had no use other than being a collectible, it probably had considerable value.

“Just like the story of the sun tarot card itself, this card has the power to transcend constraints and make wishes come true. Although it may not be as mystical as described, it can certainly make your love dream come true,” An Jinrou said softly. “The power of the sun overcomes everything, unaffected by external forces, and similarly unresisted by internal forces.”

“Then… how do I use it?” Xu Fengwu asked curiously.

“It’s very simple, just like when you pray at other churches, temples, or anywhere else, hold the sun card and make a wish to it. If you two have never been together, you just need to wish for you to be together. If you were together but separated, you just need to wish for reconciliation,” An Jinrou restored her signature smile and answered Xu Fengwu’s question.

“If I really choose to do this, what will happen to her…”

“Hmm? What do you mean what will happen? Customer, are you talking about the girl you like? Of course, she will fall in love with you.” Hearing Xu Fengwu’s words, An Jinrou seemed to frown, as if reproaching her for not understanding even this.

“No… I mean, why would she fall in love with me? If the sun card is real, what power did it use to make that girl like me again…” Xu Fengwu said in a low voice. “Could it be, like mind control?”

“…Probably, that’s how it is.”

An Jinrou’s answer might have resolved Xu Fengwu’s doubts, but it also made Xu Fengwu fall silent. An Jinrou beside her let her sit quietly at the counter with her head down for a long time.

After a long while, Xu Fengwu finally raised her head, put the sun card back on the table, and pushed it towards An Jinrou.

“I’m sorry, shop owner, I appreciate your kindness, but I really can’t use it.” Xu Fengwu’s eyes met An Jinrou, and they seemed to be filled with some kind of determination.

“Can you tell me why?”

Though it was a question, what An Jinrou’s face revealed was not curiosity, but rather a kind of appreciation.

“What I want is for her to truly like the current me again, which also means I’ve really changed, and this time she likes the changed me, not the lingering attachment to a white moonlight, just like my mother said. If I use this card, and if this card is real, I might become that overly proud person again who never cared about her feelings. I don’t want to become like that again. Maybe this time she would indulge me for life, but that’s not the result I want.” Xu Fengwu suddenly smiled, it was a particularly relieved smile.

“I also want to be like them, to pursue a love that truly belongs to me. I understand that part of my feelings for her is still attachment to the past, insecurity from losing her protection, and jealousy of having something of mine taken away. All of this also comes from my love for her, and I will learn to accept it all. If I lose in the end, I won’t have any regrets, but if I get her through this method, I might regret it for life.”

“Besides, I won’t lose. I said I would prove that as her white moonlight, I can be better than any woman.”

As soon as the words fell, An Jinrou opposite actually started applauding.

The upright sun card facing Xu Fengwu suddenly turned reversed, then spontaneously combusted on the table, turning to ashes that gradually dispersed.

“Heaven helps those who help themselves. People are not distinguished by nobility or humbleness, but hearts differ in height. If one traps oneself in a cage, no one can save them.”

“When the heart generates sanctity, it can transcend dreams of darkness and fall. Being able to withstand the temptation of the heart, you are truly remarkable.”

After An Jinrou’s words, the tower in the position of the destined card also turned to ashes, revealing a new tarot card behind it. That tarot card’s sense of sanctity was even more intense than the magical sun card, the pattern was as if directly cast in platinum white.

【The Star – 星星】